More than 6 months...

It has been 6 months and 18 days since I last blog. I’ve been procrastinating to update my blog for the longest time till today I finally decided to login and update my post.

I just got back from catching up with Kay and it has been 2 years plus since we last meet up for a drink. We have only been chatting on MSN occasionally. I must say Kay had just enlightened me with his experiences, truly appreciate him sharing his experiences with me. Kay, if you are reading this, you made me feel like blogging today and thanks for that :)

6 months down the road, a lot of things happened in my life. Some changes for good and some not so. I realized I really should take things easy in my life. I have not really been treating myself right by setting all the high expectation.

Along these 6 months, I am glad that I’ve my family, baby and some friends being there for me whenever I needed you guys the most. I may have made new friends or got closer with some friend that I never thought we can be as close as of now (you know who you are) and I also lost some friends along the road.

It’s nothing new for me to have lost some friends along the way but not someone that I used to admired and adore for her intellectual, manners and her approaches towards everyone. I must say this is really sad for me and I know I have to accept that this person that I used to admire no longer the same person I used to know. Life goes on…I shall move on and should not dwell on it anymore just as Kay said.

Last month (1^st of March ’10) was my beloved dad’s 3^rd year anniversary. I have a dedicated post for him last year but not this year coz I am grown up now. I no longer miss my dad as much as I do like before. I still miss him that’s for sure, it’s just that I have finally accepted his death and so do my family members.

I supposed he no longer worried so much about me as well coz he no longer visiting me in my dream land. I pray his altar every morning before I go to work and there are times when I needed someone to be there for me I will tell him please drop by my dream daddy. Normally I will ended up getting upset coz he didn’t appear but on the other hand he must have did it on purpose coz he knows I need to handle things on my own now coz I am his grown up daughter now. As I am typing this, I can feel the tears flowing down my cheeks. At times I will still blame myself for not able to tell him how much I love him when he’s around.

I always think and ask myself why do people take me for granted? But when I flash back, a lot of times I take my family for granted too without me realizing it and I supposed it’s karma that my friends is now taking me for granted so that I will realized and learn from there.

Alright that’s all for now, need to wash off the mask on my face with the marks of my tears flowing from my eyes down to my jaw. Ewwww! I look like a crying ghost! :p

Nitez for now and to be continue…